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mourn.

I finally got emotional about 9/11 last night. They were playing a 911 recording of a man telling the operator how he needed to get out of the towers.
you can't fake that kind of terror.
he knew he was going to die.
and he was desperate.
all he kept saying is "i have small kids man. i've got to get out of here."
and then then phone call was cut short because the tower he was in collapsed. you could hear the walls around him crumbling, and then he was gone.
thousands of people saw the ones they loved die right in front of them on the TV screen. and there was nothing they could fucking do about it but watch.
one lady says she has the timing down perfectly. her husband was a firefighter conducting search and rescure in tower 2. his dispatch calls were recorded. she knows exactly where he was when the tower collapsed. she says that still, 10 years later, she yells at his voice telling him he's only got a minute left. 30 seconds. 5 seconds. and then boom.

i remember i had only been 16 for 5 days when 9/11 happened. i was old enough to know the magnitude of the events that occured that day. i was old enough to remember life pre 9/11 and how different life was post 9/11. i was old enough to be scared out of my fucking mind.

and i don't think it'll matter how many years pass. the video and pictures taken from that day will always bring tears to my eyes. it will always make my stomach turn.

i just hope that everyone takes a minute today to think about all of the people who lost their lives, all of the people who lost their loved ones, and all of the people whose lives it continues to effect today. like ours.

8:08 a.m. - 2011-09-11

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