----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- family. i'm just sitting here thinking. thinking that if you were here we could go play in the rain. splash in the puddles. watch out for worms. thinking that i want you to come up behind me in the shower. put your arms around me. rock me back and forth. thinking that it's almost dinner time. that i want to cook you dinner. share a meal. even clean it up. thinking that i want to pick crumbs and fuzz out of your mustache and beard. i know how mad that makes you. thinking that i want the blanket to smell like you again. it faded. smells like dog. really i'm just thinking that i'm scared that i will never have any of this again. time is a disease and i'm fucking infected. 5:42 p.m. - 2009-07-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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