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what about me?

i'm having a hard time tonight.
i mean, everything is set up just right. i cleaned up, the kitchen is sparkling and disinfected, all the laundry is done, and i've vacuumed so many times i'm surprised i haven't worn it down to small threads.
i even shaved my legs.

i know i'm just having a hard time tonight.
it's no fun to be clumsy when no one is around.
i just want to hear how good i look. and i guess a compliment doesn't mean as much if it isn't coming from your lips.
god, i miss those lips.
god, i just want you to touch my skin.

i'm having a really hard time tonight.
i'm crying, again.

7:11 p.m. - 2007-12-03

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