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the long drive home.

i'm a much different person now.
right now.
compared to the things i used to do, the ways i used to act, and the people i used to call my friends. i've gained something inside myself to grow.
i'm trying.
ive made friends here. i got a job here. i adopted a new dog here. i've made this home. because this is where my family is now. chris and i, we are family now. and we love like we are family. and thats more beautiful than you could ever imagine.

i wake up every morning hoping.
i just feel like every one gets to live a in a bubble. they dont have to feel the ground rumble. they dont have to sacrifice. sanity. love. reality. they get to wake up and go to sleep safe every night.
we don't.
ever.
no one i know can comprehend that.
and until you live in our world, you won't ever know.
so, thats why i've changed. not so much because i've wanted to, but because i've had to. because of this.

now boy, its time to come home please. and thank you.

10:04 p.m. - 2007-08-05

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