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you win.

i'm scared of everything.
we wouldn't be human if we weren't allowed to second guess every decision that we've ever made.
i wouldn't be human if i hadn't had second thoughts.
as long as they don't go on to third and fourth thoughts, right?
thats not meant to be a rhetorical question.
thats meant for answers.
i'm looking for the right answers.

there i was, a smart college student that had the world figured out. and here i am now. it was so much safer then. i felt so much safer.
vulnerabitlity used to be so cute.
what the fuck happened?

i'm way too young to grow up. there are so many things i want to see and things that i have left to taste before i settle down, become a teacher. i'm afraid i'm growing up too fast.
it's all this pressure. coming from you. i'm not comfortable wasting my days away in this apartment. and i'm not comfortable starting a career at 21.
i'm so eager.
i've always been so eager.
and then i get bored.

6:55 p.m. - 2007-06-05

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