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here are the lyrics to the song that i wrote you.

i wrote him an e-mail that was about a million miles long, in length and in depth and meaning.
but i said screw it, it's the same things i say everytime i'm tired and i know i have to be in a few hours. it's the same things i mean for him to take to heart, but he always leaves them on the computer screen.
it's the same things i'm tired of saying over and over again.

i am an amazing person. i'm done trying to convince him of that. there are plenty of other people that think it too, and lately thats been enough to get me by. (more than enough, actually).
..and this week, it got me down.

there is so much prospect out there, in so many other cities that i wish i could get my hands on. sometimes i can taste it how bad i want to leave.
i've tried everything else, and running away is next on the list.
my words are so valuable. i wish they were money, i would be rich. and i could be whatever the fuck i wanted.

i dream big. and sometimes it gets me in trouble. i've tangled and twisted myself into two separate pieces. and its only a matter of time before they meet, connect, and make one huge fucking mess.
i'm ready for fireworks.

11:20 p.m. - 2005-12-16

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