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i've got a secret.

i know how she feels...because i have become her. in every way that i've ever pitied her, laughed at, made fun of her.
and i never had any intentions of becoming that. because she is that. and i'm not her. so, i don't want to be her being that. ever. ever. ever.

so, i take it back. as long as i never have to be her. i don't want that pity from stronger girls. better girls.
because i am strong like them. i want to be them. not her. but them. always.

but even if i'm not that and more like them, it doesn't bring love. it sucks. completely.
i hate it.
and then there is you.
but you are a totally different story.

1:51 a.m. - 2005-11-20

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