----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- strappy shoes and a martini. sometimes i feel like talking to the night. because just as she arrives, everyone turns over their covers, closes their eyes, and drifts into other days where the sun shines, and the people laugh. and all the night has to do is sit, and wait, alone. i want to pretend that the night is that beautiful, wonderful person that i can have a beautiful, wonderful conversation with. because, that person, as beautiful and wonderful as they are, cease to exist in my world. but i don't know the night as well as you think, and i'm not comfortable telling it all my secrets, just yet. and all this time i've painted a perfect, perfect sky. i've shown just how the light can hit his face, rounding off the hard edges, softening up the tough exterior. i've painted little squinty eyes, and a smile that i swear is the end of me still, to this day. i failed to paint the clouds, that hide the sun. i failed to paint imperfection. the things i loved most about us. it's called denial. and it's painted me right into my own perfect, perfect hole. i am a lost cause. completely. absolutely. i am imperfect. i am a million different imperfections. in one whole person. 11:32 p.m. - 2005-11-09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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