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into pieces.

i wish i could unsend that e-mail.
i'm okay, i have just been having a bad few days. i've never been so bruised in my life. and with 3 games this week, 2 of which are conference games, i'm not happy.
i've sucked it up before. nothing is going to stop me from sucking it up again. i need to stop complaining, i'm getting on my own nerves.
but this is a busy week. i wont be home from my game until late tonight. wednesday i have school, soccer, this stupid make over thing, and a benefit for the hurricane at wick's pizza. thursday i have a test, which i haven't studied for one second for, and another 3 hour away game. friday and saturday i have to work. then sunday, i have another game. and monday, it starts all over again.
and i'm being the biggest baby about it. all.

i have absolutely gone nuts.
i'm going to stop surfing the internet. i'm back into that slump i promised myself i would get out of.
i'm just going to bike. constantly. and pray that things with shape themselves back up into recognizable form on their own. i have no control.
and sometimes, thats what i like about this new life that i'm living.

9:19 a.m. - 2005-09-13

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