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FUCK FOREVER.

so, here we go again.
i'll raise a glass to the end of an era, and the beginning of something new. even though i won't raise it all the way.
it's ironic how you can make so many memories in a year and a half, and they can be so quickly thrown into the back of the closet. it's even more ironic how, you (yourself, as in me, veronica), can become a memory.
i vow to never let myself become a memory to some one else. from this day forward.

it's been 30 small minutes. and i've already had my burial. i've purged everything, from picture frames, to rings, to clothes, to blankets, to body spray, to screen names and e-mails. if i could, i would probably throw my whole room out, because its stained.
because in a few short seconds, forever can vanish, and you can feel like there is no such thing. ever.

but, man, i am going to miss the fuck out of that boy. in every way, shape, and form. because it's not going to be as fun to not share the blanket with anyone else.
i am a beautiful girl. who can give some one the world. if not more. too bad the only boy i want to give anything, wants nothing from me.
ive had the best year and a half. period.

i don't feel like i'm ever going to be the same.
fuck forever, it's bullshit.
goodbye chris.
for the millionth time.

2:30 p.m. - 2005-08-19

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