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close your eyes, let yourself breathe.

things change.
deal with it.
nothing is going to stay the same.

but i never knew it would be like this. worried, staying awake until 5 in the morning. thinking. not knowing. and being scared.
that its over. before we even really give it a chance. to a new relationship, with new beginnings. and if there was ever a time to make things right, start over, now would be it.
i wish we could forget the past. and i could have met you after this experience was over. that way it would be easier.
but that was our testament to begin with. that we were going to do this because it was hard. because we had something to prove. we had love. and from what we both understood, thats all you needed. maybe love is nothing without affection, without attention, without words, and without vision.
i don't believe it. i love. i know i love. even without.
now, can you love the same as me?
i walked back inside last night, without. without a smile. without you. with nothing. i drove stressed. almost right into a tree.
you say that you've matured. no more stupid lies, mistakes. no more bullshit. you say that you will never make me hurt. i walked inside last night without hope, faith, without respect, and feelings. i walked inside hurting.
when will you learn where to step, and where to stop? i'm tired of waiting, for everything. i'm changing, daily. i'm in the right direction.
would you care to join me?

4:35 p.m. - 2005-07-31

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