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we're going to the chapel

ive been so overwhelmed lately. i guess more scared than anything.
with chris leaving, him surprising me and proposing and giving me a ring, with school starting back up and taking a major class that could potentially get me a job writing and work.
i can say ive been a bit short, with everything. im trying to stay on top, reading, writing papers, working in between classes, going to night school and not getting home until 9:30 and realizing that i have even more school work to do.
needless to say that it will only get worse as im approaching my junior year. im just ready. im ready to be out of school. im ready to have all these things that are so close...but in reality so fucking far away.
but im excited. because everything looks so bright from here. a wedding, having a husband, getting my degree, becoming a huge writer. ive found that certain place, and my intentions are nothing but pure. some great lady with no name, told me that god always pulls the rug out from under us to teach us great lessons. and all this time we thought life was a game, when really, its more like grade school...

...and if i only knew that life was going to be one big test, i would have studied more......i hate failing, but whats worse, is i hate that you know i failed.

5:54 p.m. - 2005-02-07

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