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im faking the way i hold you.

its inside of me.
building up these walls.
i dont know what to say, or how to explain this.
all i can tell you is that it doesnt feel good.

and i know why its hurting.
because i feel like a fucking idiot.
because i thought things were going good.
and you felt differently.
and that makes it harder for me to get over.
im so fucking stupid.
god, im so fucking stupid.

and i always fall for every empty word.
its time to start over.
with a new handshake and a different hello.
its time to turn my head around straight, its time to fucking dry up these eyes of mine.
i fall every single time.
im such a fool.
fuck, im such a fucking fool....

11:19 a.m. - 2004-11-22

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