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will you be mine tonight?

im still shaking.
but its been going on so long that im beginning to question the cause.
i got a case of the anxieties.
and i think they are about to attack.

i had a bad day at work. the worst one yet. my sister made me close by myself. except i dont know how to close on fridays. so, i was alone, $70 short of what i should have. i finally figured out the problem, but it was 5 and i still hadnt finished. so my sister told me to leave and she would finish in the morning.

and i hate not finishing what i should do. more like, i feel stupid. i feel like crying, still. and that was nearly an hour ago.
i just want to lay down. i want to find that healthy balance. maybe i need some type of smoothie with a drop of normalcy in it. i always have too much of one and not enough of the other. im always out of wack.
i need a hug.

5:47 p.m. - 2004-11-19

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