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things are happening, but not to me.

im never going to dream again.
im never going to wish on another star.
i dont want to think anymore.
i dont want to have memories.
i dont want to know the meanings.

and if i never have to hear another word again, i would be okay. we could end on a good note. and i could still hold onto every single word you once said.
i dont remember what the bright side looked like...
i havent looked there in forever.
im sitting under a different sky.
im lost.
and all i want to do is pick up the phone....i just want to scream this all out. i want to bleed it all away.
i cant wait to be out of words.
i cant wait to be numb again.
im running right back to who i used to be.
i wish someone would stop me.
god, there is really no chance of saving me.
who am i kidding?
i feel terrible about myself.

1:41 p.m. - 2004-11-02

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