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i cant do this all alone...

i dont think i could ever be full of this.
and if i ever did..
i would just purge,
then start to binge again.

unhealthy?
no.
not even an hour with this one makes everything glow.
maybe its scary that some one has that much power over my life.
but im sick of this guard that i have blocking my perfect way to happiness.
im sick of holding back.
im sick of being scared that you will have it all,
and find out that you have it all..
and theres no more to find with me.
yea,
thats what scares me.

im done with the worries.
because if you cant see what you have now,
then it was never meant to be yours anyway.

this ones special.
this one really takes every single breath away.
i really really cant let this one get away.

10:06 p.m. - 2004-10-17

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