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i wish i could fly

in the last 24 hours, apparently my grandma has gotten worse. her shaking is wearing her out, so she falls asleep at like 8. but it also wakes her up, so she doesnt sleep much.

ive always thought in this situation, something would finally give. but i guess i couldnt be more wrong. i just dont see how i keep saying things get worse. because from where im standing, i dont think it could be any worse than this. well, except.....

breathe veronica. please just breathe. tomorrows a new day. i havent felt like crying all day. and now, here i am, again, with a fucking million things on my mind. and it all falls into place, and everything im worried about just puts itself right in the front of my mind. and i cant help bu think about it all, so i can cry even more. im not going to be able to sleep.

breathe...please just fucking breathe...

9:52 p.m. - 2004-08-30

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