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take me down to the paradise city where the grass is green and the girls are pretty

im at school... so of course im in the best mood. ha. im so tired. i couldnt sleep last night. i felt dead. i was just laying there, so lifeless, like i wasnt even breathing. i guess when he walked out the door again it felt like a part of me died. im just so sick of feeling like hes miles away from me. and i hate that i cant just talk to him and have a simple conversation and i hate that i cant call him and tell him when something happens. i just hate knowing that i wont see him again until saturday. but at least then i wont have to say goodbye and worry about when i will see him next. because he is home. and i guess thats something that i can smile about, right? at least i have school and soccer to keep me busy.

im really going to start hanging out with leslie, amy, and cassidy more. i really love those girls. they are so fucking funny. they are good friends and they talk so much shit about everyone just like me, so it makes our friendship a lot better. so thats cool. well, im going to go to class because i didnt finish my math shit last night so i need to do that before 12.

have a great day.....i love you.

9:23 a.m. - 2004-08-25

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