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no no no no no no no

when he calls i try and pretend that i dont miss him. i try to act like the tough one and tell him that its only one more week. god, if i could only melt and explain that this has been a rough week with my grandma and soccer and im in this situation and the only thing that can pull me out is him. i want him to know that its hard to wake up to an empty bed. im just really used to sleeping with him every night. im used to him being there when i wake up.

everything that i love in my life i am obsessed with. whether it is a person and my dog or a tv show or soccer. i am obsessed with everything in my life. and that gets a bit tedious. i just want a good nights sleep. but its too late, because i woke up a few hours later and it was already morning.

9:41 a.m. - 2004-08-21

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