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where are you when i need you?

i officially want to die.

i know, i say it a lot. but i really cant stop crying. i cant take this. im too fucking old to deal with this. and it makes it even worse that i always deal with this shit alone. because at the end of the day, i take the fall alone. i get blamed for every ounce of drama that goes down in my house. no joke. and im always confused because i dont know what the fuck i did. waking up is just too much for me anymore.

i really dont want this life anymore. im really not happy. i really wish i didnt exist. it would be easier that way.

12:17 p.m. - 2004-08-08

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