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this years love had better last.

chris has mono. im doomed. and on the way home, i was thinking, ive been exhausted lately.....but maybe thats just me being paranoid. i cant get sick now, i start soccer in 3 days.

but, more than ever, i feel like im in love. we havent gotten in a fight in like 2 days. and its amazing how that feels. it really makes me realize what i have in front of me. and today, i was just driving, with the biggest smile on my face. and i said "fuck veronica, your really in love with this boy." and i continued to smile. and im still smiling right now. i dont know what it is about him, but everytime i see him, i fall again. im jello. and my knees just fold to the ground. its a hopeless cause to ever try to stand up and not melt on impact. but i continue to try. because im hoping that he wont take advantage of the fact that i love him unconditionally.

this just proves that second tries sometimes work better.

im hoping to see leslie tonight. hang out. but if not, id be happy just sitting next to chris. im going to eat with my family.

5:14 p.m. - 2004-08-06

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