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im naked now

of course, i knew it would happen. as soon as he showed up, it was all better. he didnt have to even show remorse. it was just automatically ok. it always is. and i hate that. i hate that i can forget, not even forgive, but totally forget as soon as i see that fucking face. god. and i smiled, for the first time all day. he does that to me. i dont know how to describe it. but it always happens. i do, i really do need him in my life. ive seen and kissed and i have been with so many fucking bad seeds. and this time i feel like ive fucking picked the perfect flower. and im not willing to give it all up for anything. i guess, between us, there is so much love. and thats why this happens. because i cant compromise love. i wont. i dont know how. so when i feel "threatened" or even bothered by some one else, im not willing to just give him up to it. even though i really dont think he is going anywhere. its still is a problem. and when im bothered by something, believe me, the whole world will know. i love him. he loves me. so i will leave it at that. because love makes everything okay. or at least it should.

8:40 p.m. - 2004-07-29

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