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cloudy sunshine.

hopefully good news will work its way on in some time today.

i wish i had a solid group of friends. i always just feel like i dont fit in with anyone. i always just feel like people sell me short of any kind of chance because i guess im different? i dont know. today is the worst day ive had in months. i feel terribly, not physically, but really emotionally. im drained. i wish i could wake up again, and start over. i mean, if some one would have warned me when i woke up that things were going to go like this, well, i think i would have just stayed in bed. i didnt know that one simple day could be so hard to get through. i havent had one of these days in a couple of months. probably since william and me broke up. its just emotionally draining. i hate today.

3:59 p.m. - 2004-07-07

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