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i hate you so much right now.

if i ever was to teach anyone anything, it would be that every sky bleeds the same, no matter what color it is.

so, im learning to throw everything out the window. and just want to scream "what the fuck".

but hey, you are right, im the best at running away. nothing gets rid of a problem faster than running. so, why stick around when you have two feet that can get you the fuck out of any situation. and believe me, im pretty fucking fast. yea, it may be the wrong way to deal with shit, but you have to agree that i make a very valid point.

who am i kidding though, you are always right.

but im out. im just going to leave. i have a full tank of gas, and i wish i could use all of it tonight. ive done nothing but sit by myself today. and i have a feeling that tonight wont be any different. im not happy, no, not right now. im dissapointed. im confused. im letting my heart take over my mind, like always. i wish i had control. over anything. i cant put my fucking feet down. and everytime i think i have it all together, well, i just fall apart. and just like that, i have to start all over again.

so, heres to starting over, again, tonight. man, its going to be a long, long night for me. i can taste it. and its gross.

4:31 p.m. - 2004-06-25

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