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your letting me take the fall, alone.

i hate it when you stay the night because i know you have to leave. and after you do, you smell is all over my room. and i have to sit there in the tease for the rest of the day knowing that i cant see you. its the taste that kills me though. i love your taste.

i wish you were making me blush right now. but your not here, and i left not really meaning goodbye. i guess it was for the best, you were busy, and every one deserves a little down time away from veronica. i just get in the way.

i know now that giving in means giving up, and it looks like i did both tonight. im sad, because im sitting here starring at my phone, listening to silence, making sure that i didnt miss your call. but, what do you know, i havent missed it because you havent called.

so, whats better than starring at this screen, hoping that maybe it will talk back. ive ran out of comforting words to tell myself, im just run down.

if i quit, they win. and i would enjoy nothing more than beating you.

9:14 p.m. - 2004-06-21

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