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this scratch, well, it was supposed to say your name.

if we dont let ourselves live tonight, if we dont let ourselves fall right now, then when? because im not sure i can make it another second alone. and when your not here, i can still fucking taste you, your still lingering around in my bed, at least i can smell you there. but its so bittersweet because i know no matter how much i pretend, and close my eyes, and smell you, i have to open my eyes eventually, and your not here. and no matter how much i wish it true, im not there either. because i thought this was heaven, and im just waiting for you to prove me wrong. lets show everyone, lets let everyone listen to the sound of love, because i can hear it, can you? yea, love is painful, i know they told me, i know that i was supposed to listen, but i never do. i found out for myself, and well, i think the pain is worth it all. i guess im trying to say that you are worth any pain that i could ever feel. your worth a million tears, and a million rips in my heart. your worth every beat, every shake, every little bead of sweat. i wish that i could say it, it would go in your ear, and straight to your heart. well, your sweet and im blushing. i hope this makes you smile. and i hope that i make you smile.

3:14 p.m. - 2004-06-08

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