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thank god for dreams, especially the ones that really come true.

i think i scared you. maybe me saying forever freaks you out. i wont say it again, i promise. or at least if thats not what you want right now. instead of being together forever, we'll talk about being together for a "long time." yea, 10 years. (to make up for the 7 hes liked me and the 3 ive liked him). i swear though, in middle school, if someone would have told me i would end up with chris, i wouldnt have believed them. i would have laughed, just because he never said a word, and me, well i was a bitch. ha, good thing that this all worked out, because a year or so ago i promised myself that i would never let anything happen between us again because he didnt deserve another try. but there is just something about him, just something about his fucking eyes. there is no possible way i could say no to this boy. no possible way. im enjoying myself, letting myself go into him, because there are no reserves, its balls out or quit this time. and i know that im not quitting any time soon. im having too much fun to stop now. the way i figure, the most perfect thing about this all is that this all is just starting. many more fucking amazing laughs to go, and i cant wait for every single one of them. smile today, and lets just go ahead and forecast a smile for tomorrow.

im at school, only 7 more classes to go, and only 19 days until im in florida. man, right now, this summer is for sure going to shine. i absolutely cannot fucking wait.

9:30 a.m. - 2004-06-07

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