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i looked to hard to find you and i missed you even more

after i took chris home last night, i just started crying. i couldnt stop, i just cried so fucking hard. i felt betrayed, alone, i felt like i was hurting. hurting bad. so of course, i cried. and i listened to a song that reminds me of bad times. and there it was, me driving alone, crying, feeling like i had no where to go. it just reminded me too much of how things used to be. and of course, instead of calling someone, telling them that i didnt feel ok, i just went home and felt worse. fuck me for being stupid. fuck.

12:10 p.m. - 2004-04-05

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